YI Xin

2019/7/18 19:20

"Married to love, but lost to tea rice oil and salt sauce vinegar tea"

Use F(I)D(her) below

F: What kind of cartoon did you like when you were young? Is there any impression?

X: Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Little Nephew, Star Trek Dinosaur, Antenna Baby, Dragon Ball, Black Cat Sheriff, etc. There is also Detective Conan, and some can't think of it. Some of them were bought directly by the disc when they were young, and there was Diga Altman. It was really a dish, although it was long gone. Haha

F: Haha, I am very impressed by the detective Conan. You thought that these cartoons are the most attractive to you.

X: Interesting, purely interesting. When I was a child, how to say it, it was the boss. I grew up with my parents. Because my parents were very busy at work, there was nothing to take me, so I started studying in kindergarten when I was 3 years old. When I was a child, I liked some strange things. Things, such as kindergarten, when parents usually arrive at home in the middle of the night, I will be very embarrassed to write homework at home, get it before 9 o'clock, maybe go to bed early, maybe watch TV series (yes, I started to chase the drama at that time, I am impressed The deepest, a drama that my kindergarten has chased, called "Red Spider", is a criminal investigation serious film. It starts broadcasting at 12 o'clock in the evening and ends at 2 o'clock in the middle of the night. It happens that my parents were off work at 2 o'clock. All I have never been caught in the middle of the night without sleeping.

F: What a weird thing?

X: I like to watch anime, zombie films and criminal investigations. Most of Hong Kong's products are especially daring when I was a child. Every criminal episode of the criminal investigations of the dead people dare to look at them. The old generation of criminal investigation films are not what I have not seen. Now I am courageous. Small, zombie films and horror stories don't dare to listen or dare to watch, because at night they may dream of nightmares. Then, in junior high school, the whole person started to be low and dark in junior high school. There was no particularly good friend. Although it was very sunny on the surface, it was still very lonely and dark. What circles didn't fit in, and then they simply did not force themselves. The conflict of loneliness and darkness is mainly related to the family and has little to do with my school life.

F: Is it that parents are rarely around?

X: Parents are around, family contradictions are more, scars are basically from the family, endless quarrels, etc., "Married to love, but lost to tea rice oil and salt sauce vinegar tea." At that time, there was a lot of quarrels. I had a psychological shadow.

F: What do parents usually quarrel for?

X: Children's education, development, and money, the eternal quarrel theme. They also licked things. At that time, they were especially afraid of their divorce, because when I was born, they wanted to part ways. Later, I was told by my aunt and my grandmother, and I cut it down. It doesn't matter if I think about it now, but they don't have a domestic violence, and they didn't beat me. I can't evaluate their marriage, but I hope they can all be well.

Here she actually has tears in her eyes and red eyes. She asked to skip the details of this topic. She said she was afraid of tears.....so we changed another topic.

F: Can you talk about what you want to say to yourself now?

X: Don't be too anxious to be desperate. How desperate you are now, you will feel how ridiculous you are now. Absolutely, don't make any decisions when you have negative energy!

At least make yourself happy and make up your mind. People who have eaten a lot of bitterness do not need too much sweetness to lick, they are content, and a little sweet is enough.

F: I remember you told me about your friend’s cut.

X: My very good friend, she was too painful to cut her wrist and was found to have lost her hospital in time. When I saw this news, I was still working as an intern at the company. I cried when I grinned. She really needs a hope, even a little bit, I insist, no need to create a

F: See your postcards that encourage me every day on your social software.

X: The opportunity to write a postcard is a microblog that she accidentally said. If someone cheers her every day, she is happy too. I think so, and I did it, although I wrote some daily everyday words. But it’s better than nothing. Sometimes I also think that I am also finding a way for myself in this process. Before my college roommate was also a two-way depression, I also tried to cut my wrist after graduation, but I have not found out that there is something wrong with her for four years, that is, all kinds of emotions are quite normal and very lively. It's really hard to imagine.

X: I once had a paradox with her. Probably: I have some of you, and I don’t have one. I don’t think you have any reason. Why do you always think that you are sick? Why do you believe in the doctor’s diagnosis, in case you It is not sick. She thinks she can't see hope, she is desperate, she doesn't want to walk the dead, so she has stopped taking medicine for some time. The medicine for treating depression has great side effects, slow thinking, and decreased limbs. The knife cuts the arm and doesn't feel much.....